We are easily aware of how we conduct ourselves during the day because everything we do or do not do is given meaning in regard to the quality of our functionality, but becoming aware of the inner speech, the running commentary of the mind throughout the day requires sharper vigilance. From the moment we awaken it begins, reminding us of where we are on the schedule of life, how efficiently we need to do what in order to get to whichever point has been determined as necessary.
Sleep better, wake up earlier, get it done quicker, eat healthier, exercise more, read more, learn more, write better, work harder, interact more, go out more, stay in more, keep the house cleaner, meditate more, concentrate more, be nicer, be more assertive, save more money, invest more money, brush your teeth more, be more spontaneous, be less impulsive, be more active, be more peaceful, be a better child, parent, sibling, partner, lover, friend, employee, colleague, boss, artist, performer, cook, JUST UP YOUR HUMAN GAME OR ELSE. This list varies obviously according to individual priorities, but what remains in common for many of us is the language we use in the commentary around our action or inaction.
If you pay close attention to your own expectations and responses around each of the things you do from the trivial to the essential on a daily basis, you may find yourself rather stunned at how obnoxious the inner voice can be. You may also wonder how you have even survived this long in the company of said obnoxious beast. More likely than not, your body takes the toll in the form of some physical symptom(s), or the torment is expressed in forms of anxiety, depression, disturbed relationships, or inability to find one’s path and purpose. The energy is sitting somewhere, and it is not happy. The wonderful news is that once you begin to observe it, you are already on your way to changing the words, the tone, the feeling of that inner voice and with this simple act consciousness changes form, and with that your entire lived experience, internally and externally. Once we become conscious of how much we are grading our performance at every given chance, we open a well of compassion for self and others, because we know that we would never consciously choose to speak to another like that. We realise that the supposed optimal version of ourselves had no fighting chance with this nonsense running in the background constantly. Moral and productivity pressure have nothing to do with Natural Law, which is not something that needs to be taught, it is known, it is given wisdom at birth, through previous births (if one is inclined to such belief), and can only grow if not for the noise of the flawed mind. By observing the most repetitive thoughts one has about self, we gain insight into how much energy is being given to something that does not require it. This may sound obvious but these mental patterns are so naturalized they do not occur as abnormal or absurd until their frequency and intensity is caught again and again, through practiced effort.
There are certain aspects in the chart which emphasize these tendencies, some definitely have them stronger than others. When that is the case there is an invitation to untether the bit in the mouth, to discover a greater compassion for self and others than hitherto known, and to reveal a creative intention which responds to natural inspiration, not performance pressure. Regardless of the chart all that I have mentioned points to the ultimate strength of the mind, and how significant to our journey the restructuring and proper harnessing of our consciousness is. Initially however, due to the society we have been born into, the inner insistence on proving and improving is a default setting, and takes conscious, committed effort to resetting. When we have returned to our natural state, there is no need for persuasive and disciplinary tactics for optimal results whether in work, health, wealth, relationships, creativity, and more. We will always gravitate towards choices that are the healthiest, most beneficial, and sustain enduring abundance when our inner speech is kind, encouraging, and supportive.
Which sanctified audience is one in the business of proving oneself before? For what purpose other than an extraordinarily short-lived satisfaction of the unhealthy ego? The one that requires pacifying and justification for your presence on Earth. Your presence is justified by the fact that you are drawing breath. The Universe is pacified by your presence. For only you can unfold its potential in the peculiar scents and hues that were bestowed within your unique seedling Self, and it enjoys watching every single moment that you falter, stumble, prance, and sway, filling more and more space with your bloom. This is the only more that matters, the expansion and reach of your energy, your fragrance. The only evidence of this lies in your comfortable movement through life, gauging nothing, scaling nothing, simply knowing in your bones that as you go forth all is right, because what is right is easeful, without resistance, without force, it does not ask to be pursued, it is received by you.
The Kingdom of Flaw has been defeated. We now traverse the Kingdom of Wonder.